Insomnia and ADHD

Most of my life, falling asleep presented a daunting task. Each night, as I started to fall asleep, panic seized me. I’d gasp for air and break out in a hot sweat. Insomnia ruled my nights, leaving me wired on adrenaline during the day. Eventually, I utilized Mind-Body Skills, which allowed me to fall back to sleep within a few hours. I was okay with that. Not thrilled, but okay.

Then, I made several changes that I had no idea would influence my sleep.

Over the past two years, I ventured into territories that scared the bejezus out of me. These daunting challenges led to an unexpected discovery. One night, I noticed the panic, once synonymous with falling asleep, had eased significantly.

I don't want to imply that I sleep perfectly every night. Despite following a nightly routine, I don’t always sleep well. However, I landed on a startling realization: Sometimes, fear can masquerade as an unfulfilled desire, a stifled need, or an ability that's yearning to be utilized.

I took on challenges that scared me. For example, I published a book about my recovery, hosted online meetings and classes, and spoke up for myself.

My ADHD wants me to set the world on fire. Sadly, that’s not happening but I am doing just enough to ease my inborn need to do something useful, find a modicum of relief and, with it, a decent night’s sleep.